Marriage 101

I may know less about marriage. Been in this marriage for 2 years (and still counting~), but I’ve got lots of lesson about many many things. Relationships, happiness, sadness, etc. We’ve been fighting a lot, not the kind of physical fights, more like having arguments. Mostly because of my bad attitude and (in my version) his romanticless kinda thing. To be honest, since the first time we met, he’s never been become the sweet romantic kinda guy. He’s just a man with an honest and genuine heart, (it got me reminded, that this is one of the reasons why I’m in love with him), yet I always expect that he will do something more like romantic and sweet. Apparently, he’s still that sweetless romanticless kinda guy, and becoming less and less since we have a daughter. Everything has changed and the sparks almost gone ~ But everytime i watch him sleeping, I still feel butterflies flying inside my stomach. J

Listen to this Song

Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long
No matter what I say or do
I’ll still feel you here ’till the moment I’m gone

You hold me without touch
You keep me without chains
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love 
And not feel your reign

Set me free, leave me be
I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am, and I stand
So tall, just the way I’m supposed to be
But you’re on to me and all over me

Oh, you loved me ’cause I’m fragile
When I thought that I was strong
But you touch me for a little while 
And all my fragile strength is gone

Set me free, leave me be
I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am, and I stand
So tall, just the way I’m supposed to be
But you’re on to me and all over me

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see 
That you’re everything I think I need here on the ground
But you’re neither friend nor foe though I can’t seem to let you go
The one thing that I still know is that you’re keeping me down
You’re keeping me down, eh ooh
You’re on to me, on to me, and all over

Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long

Sara Bareilles – Gravity

Sharing Thought

As an aries, I can’t hide my feeling. My happiness, my anger, my sadness, and so on. When I love someone, I always tell them straight forward~right on their faces. It goes same with someone who I hate too. I always tell them, or at least show them that I hate them. I can never fake my feelings toward people. 

Speaking of feeling, somehow, I am lack of controlling my feeling. When I love someone, I will love them ~ too much. While, too much isnt right ~ can never be right. Just like drug, when you overdose, you’ll be dead by it. I always try to tell myself not to love someone overly. However, looks like my heart doesn’t have ears. It never listens. 

I hate it when I love someone. It kills me. 

Marriage 101

Similarity may be good in a relationship. Usually, when two people attract to each other due they have something in common. Yet, it’s not applied to all cases. While, my similarity with my spouse are not in a good way because we both are stubborn, selfish, and arrogant. At the very beginning of our relationship, we had argument almost everyday. 

However, distinction may be good thing and bad thing too. It depends on what kind of distinction it is. For instance, when we have different expectation and different point of view about the relationship we build, it’s going to be hurt one another. Because relationship takes two tango. We don’t want to feel like we’re the only one who’s trying while the other thinks everything is fine. Clearly, the couple needs to talk.